Friday, March 6, 2009

LOVE- LOST & FOUND

[Based on facts.. I thank the unknown traveler...]


A slit. And I’d break free. I’d float into a world where there’d be no suffering. A world, free from misery, guilt and treachery. A world, where I can be myself, and live for myself. A world, from which I need never return. A world which would be mine.


I took the knife into my hands. I positioned it over my left wrist. The knife was shining- smooth and sharp. Just the way it should be. The setting sun shone its blood red rays over the knife. And the knife- looked jubilant.


I could see myself in that knife. No. It wasn’t me. My eyes were never bloodshot. This was someone alien. No. And I put the knife down. I turned around. I could now face the mirror. I could see a stranger.


A stranger- who’d lost his smile. A stranger- who cried like a child; who hated himself for what he’d become. A stranger- who was in me; whom I’d never invited in me.


Her eyes. It grew large every time I surprised her. Oh! She laughed like a baby! A laughter- that had no sleight, no grudge. It seemed, as though she grew younger, each day.


And one day, when she held my hands, I looked into her eyes. There was no one but she and I. No world, no universe. But she and I. I spoke. Only she would hear it. I smiled. Only she would see it. I loved. Only she would feel it.


But when she started to speak; the stranger crept in. For I was incapable of hearing what she said. And she would never love this stranger if she’d never loved me. No. It was this stranger, whom she’ll never love. Not me. She’d love me. She has to love me. But the stranger wouldn’t leave me. So, I’d kill him. I returned back to the knife.


The knife was back- over my left wrist. I heard a cry. Somewhere, on the road. It made me pause, for a moment. It delayed my journey.


I saw a baby. Round the corner- left out to rot. The stranger, lifted the baby off the trash. The baby stopped crying. His eyes grew large. He looked surprised; amazed at his own luck! The stranger was ebbing away. It was now my eyes which looked into the baby’s. The baby smiled. A smile, so pristine; sans sleight, sans grudge. His nimble fingers, gripped my shirt. And- my smile, returned…

33 comments:

Kartz said...

A strikingly vivid narration, Matangi. You have indeed done that person justice.

Take a bow.

Peace.

Matangi Mawley said...

thnk u, karthik!

Ratzzz said...

the more i read, the more i love...

the baby smiled so did i...

man in painting said...

great post..
it had clarity..
wonderful..
take care...

Anonymous said...

I like the blend of self-stranger-her-stranger. Was convoluted just like mind. Liked the title.

Matangi Mawley said...

@ rat.. Thank u.. :-)

Matangi Mawley said...

@ man in painting.. Thank u! :-)

Arnab Majumdar said...

That was beautiful...

Matangi Mawley said...

@ arv..

thnk u!

Matangi Mawley said...

@ dheepika..

:) thnk u!

Matangi Mawley said...

@ arnab..

thnk u!

Mahesh Sindbandge said...

Wonderful matangi...:)

Even though it got a superb end, i feel u can try the part-2 for this..:p
Just a thought...

u wrote this one very well....:)

Matangi Mawley said...

@ mahesh...

thnk u!

Dorothi said...

Extremely well written post....I simply loved it.
Keep doing the gr8 work.

Anonymous said...

touching and thought provoking :) beautiful :)wish the traveler reads ths..would touch him for sure

Matangi Mawley said...

@ dreamer..

thnk u!

Matangi Mawley said...

@ verbivore..

thnk u! :) he approved..

Prashant Sree said...

Well expressed lines. And quite emotive too..

Keep expressing.

One suggestion: Since both the back ground and the letters are light in color,you could help the readers a bit more by changing either of them.

Matangi Mawley said...

@ prashant..


thnk u!.. n i ll keep tht suggestion in mind..

Anonymous said...

your words just flowed like honey out of a rock

Matangi Mawley said...

@ chriz..

thnk u!

Anonymous said...

i find anything with emotions worth my time and this one truly swept me :)
thank you for the beautiful share!

Matangi Mawley said...

@ americanising desi...


thnk u! :)

Anonymous said...

Powerfully intense words! It was an awesome read! I loved the title too!

Keep the great words flowing! :)) Cheers!

Matangi Mawley said...

@ rampantheart..

thnk u!

Anonymous said...

u still have that classy write ups matangi! :)

loved it! :)

plz tell me u r releasing a book soon!

rainboy said...

it was like i saw it all...
this is what they call writer material.You sure are one.

take care

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Indrajit said...

wowww.

Matangi Mawley said...

@ leo..

thanks..

Matangi Mawley said...

@oo7..

thnks..

Matangi Mawley said...

@ amit..

thanks..

Matangi Mawley said...

@ indr..

thanks!