Friday, March 7, 2008

MASTERJI


I lived in a place where the world begins with the rising sun and ends with the setting sun. A world where people smiled at one another, where people were satisfied with what they had and never wanted more than what they needed.

It was a very small village. So small it was that everyone knew each other. Our village had just two streets. All the houses were similar, except for the Big House. My father worked for the Big House.

We had to walk a distance of about 5km to reach our school; telling adventure stories, mostly concocted impromptu; we played at the fields after school; how we liked hiding our books beneath our shirts to protect them from rain! We loved using banana leaves as our umbrella! We liked the fresh aroma of the soil after the rain. The earth was our bed and sky- our blanket!

Masterji was considered the most learned man of our village. Masterji taught us math, English, about plants and planets. He would tell us stories. We all showed lot of affection and respect towards Masterji.

Father had been to the town since last week. Mother said he would bring lot of rice and vegetables and sweets from the town. And I waited everyday for him, to return.

Masterji taught us about plants outside our classroom. We had a big banyan tree in our school. We all sat under the banyan tree, while he would tell us why the leaved were green and that plants were also living beings. That day, before teaching us about fruits and vegetables, he asked each one of us to narrate what we had for breakfast. When it was my turn, I just blurted that I had onions and cabbage.

That afternoon, Masterji called me to his room. He told me that onions were not usually consumed during that time of the year and it was also not the time of year when cabbages were available. Then he called Sukumar. He was in my class and he lived in the Big House. Masterji asked him to get some extra lunch for me, from the next day, and everyday thereafter.

That evening I came home and cried. When my mother asked me why I was crying, I didn’t know the answer. But, I cried.

Thirty years later, today, I received a phone call. The voice from the other end was easily recognizable as Sukumar’s. He said, “Naveen, Masterji has left us all, today”.

And today, I cried, again!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

DOODLE

Slow and steady, my hand gets to work,
Lines, circles and squares;
Houses and forts, buses and ports,
People, horses and mares;
As the talk proceeded
my hand moved faster-
Producing shapes as never before;
Racing into the future,
My mind is all lost;
Doodling forever and ever!

Friday, December 28, 2007

SANS THE BED OF ROSES...



A bed of roses spread on the green earth- the blue sky embellised with the jewels of the night and a soft breeze humming my favorite tune- gently, I fall asleep and smiling to myself as I do so; yet aware of the new dawn that lies ahead of me: a dawn that would take me away from all the luxuries that I had been enjoying so lavishly. And yet, I wanted to see this dawn; wanted it to come soon and deprive me of my luxuries,wanted to so desparately that my bed of roses failed to put me into the instant sleep as it usually does!
But why would I want it to come? Why would anyone ever want to deprive oneself of all the luxuries of life? The reason was simple. I wanted to see myself without my privileges. I wanted to see, how I would be if I weren't allowed what I had been enjoying in the past. Wanted to be like some my friends in my college- who were like me before they faced the "dawn"; but were full of praises for it, which was so tempting that I wanted to try it out as soon as possible and I was ready to pay the price!
As it came near, my curiosity was enroused. I was excited, nervous but happy all at once. But soon, I reached my new world- sans the bed of roses, sans the green earth and blue sky; but a world entrapped inside the pale blue walls that starts with a door of cheap wood without even a proper lock and ended with a rusted nail on the other side of that tiny room. All that the room could hold were three beds, placed so close to each other and yet there was no space to walk inside that room. An open shelf to "guard" my precious possessions- two windows that allowed the light from outside even during night time; a light without light and a fan with a broken regulator!
I was on my own. And this was what I had ever wanted.And if a broken regulator and some broken cot was the price that I was asked to pay for it- I was ready to pay it! But was I happy? Ofcourse yes! But this was a totally different kind of happiness. A happiness that came from finding myself in a situation where I had never been placed before and finding myself coping up with it. May be at a small level, but I was feeling as happy as a toddler as he tries and succeeds in taking his first step without his mother. I was as happy as a plant that tastes the first rain of the year. And as happy as a starving dog who gets his first piece of bone!
It was nearly two weeks since I had changed my world.Did I miss my world? Yes. So I hated my new world? Ofcourse not! But yes, I would surely like to go back to where I came from. But will I miss this world? Well, yes and no. Yes, for it taught me so many things that I had no chance of learning in my world- like to wash my clothes, adjust to a bad food, compromise with the not-so-good people around me, manage my time to suit my schedulde, and not to let go Mr. Gandhi unless he wanted to leave me. No, simply because, it wasn't my world, and I was very happy with mine that I do not need this one- not that I would forget my lessons; for they were chapters on survival which were vital- not just for me, but for everyone.
And so I am back into my world- my home; am happy and full of memories of my room, my bed, my account book and my life, at the hostel!

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

MY TABLE

My table was literally invisible. Hidden beneath a pile of books, trash, pens and other useless/useful stationary, it had remained that way for the past three years!
It was the day before I joined "college"; I cleaned my table with all joy and care, pasted nice posters around my walls; it was all so neat!
I could hardly enter my room. Something had to be done. My table, which had been so pretty, and so neat, was now covered with dust, trash, cobwebs- all beauty gone! My brain was imagining things as if my table had started to talk-

"... Oh! weary mistress,
stop for a while!
Remember what I had done for you..
Help me look fine
Help me look pretty
And see, what I can be for you.."
Now, I had to stop this. It can't go on like this.
Sunday. Three separate piles were tagged- "To be thrown", "To be packed", "To be rearranged".
I had, finally, cleaned my table! It looked perfect- so pretty, so clean, so beautiful! I had spent the whole day cleaning it-
".. I salute thee, my mistress-
For you'd freed me of my burden-
You are kind
You are sweet
And for that, I shall greet;
Trust me of my service,
for I shall do it with all might..
And you shall have no regrets
I'll make sure of that, all right.."!
It was nearly night time when I had finally finished giving all my "final touches" to my table. I was so tired. I picked up the three "tagged" bundles and kept them over my table.
It was one week since I had cleaned my table. It is, literally, invisible...

Monday, October 15, 2007

ROAD TO CREATIVITY



The paper was blank and my pen had stopped moving. I remained staring at the paper. I had shut myself in my room and had my eyes closed; browsing through my brain- what to write? I needed to write something- but what to write?

Should I write about nature or sky- or the moon, or the stars? But these were things that I never found time to admire! Or about love or hate? But, for me, these were games by time, the supreme truth- they need no words to be wasted on! What do I write then? I needed to write something- but what?

I opened my eyes- I came out of my room and saw new words on my paper! I had indeed written something!

Words can never be forced; nor can they be compelled. They come out from nothing and go into nowhere. So all you'll need to do is to open your mind- come out of virtual boundaries! And you shall find yourself floating away- into an endless paradise called- Creativity!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

ENCLOCKED



The press on the keys-
and the click on the mouse


The tick of the clock-


and the silence of the house


Brings out from nowhere


the shadows of the past


of the rain, of the breeze,


And smiles, I smiled the last!


The albums in my heart


Turn their pages, so old


Smiles on the faces- known, unknown


warm up my heart- void and cold!


Wish I could pause


and go back to the start


But the clock shan't unclock


And I needed to part..


The press on the keys..


The click on the mouse..






Saturday, September 1, 2007

LET HIM SLEEP


Let him sleep
wake him not
let him sleep for once
let him smile
let him dream
let him sleep for once.
It's a cruel world
that awaits his benign grin
that awaits his cry and tears
let him sleep
wake him not
let him sleep for once.
A deadly ambush of a life
awaits his struggle to live
it hungers for his sweat
and hungers for his toil
let him sleep for once.
He sleeps in a world
where smiles are real
and words spoken are meant
sans guile, sans sleight
Hence, let him sleep for once.
The leering world-
doesn't deserve his sweat
his blood, his brains or his life
let him sleep
wake him not
let him rest his nimble limbs
let him smile
let him dream
let him sleep, for once.