It is something that the elders in the house call- "passing cloud". There are so many things that mean so much more to us and so less to them. No complaints. This is not going to be about the generation gap and the little tantrums. It was the festivities around that made me open up my MS- Word this morning. Festivities- the first thing that comes to my mind- is slow background humming number by Lata- The Mangeshkar, mother holding the ‘Arthi ki Thali’, ‘Me watching’, sour faced, and someone says to me- ‘Why so serious’? Ok. I got carried away.
Yesterday- the Vijayadasami day- was just another day in a 365 day calendar. I work up late. I brushed my teeth late. Just a usual holiday business! The one good thing perhaps was- I put a nice big Thika on our cat- Thuppaandi (doesn’t mean anything. Mom named him. Thought it was a nice and funny name). He was quizzical about the entire ordeal- couldn’t understand why the entire ‘family tree’ was surrounded around him and laughing! The surprise and innocence in him- made it funnier!
But the Yesterday made me think. I am beginning to think that this line is such a cliché! In the past 4 years since I began blogging, I might have used this "made me think" line on countless occasions. Sometimes I "think" that all this "thinking" has left me with so much more to "think"- that the entire "thinking" in the process had ultimately yielded nothing worthwhile! All the philosophies and principles I had formulated inside my mind- had stayed there safe and sound- untouched by the practical world! Thanks to the "thinking".
Well, once again- the Yesterday made me think. As a young girl- I had always been enthusiastic about buying new dresses or celebrating something! But out of the blue- there is this new me- who has not only stopped thinking about the festivities- but there is something else- a strange dark evil force- stopping me to be happy about going out and shop, celebrate etc. A holiday- these days- mean just another day when I can stretch myself and do nothing!
With Diwali around the corner- I am seriously thinking about a ‘make-over’!
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Sometimes I wonder, what have I become,
when I have lost the enthusiasm of celebrating any festival.
Every holiday is now just a 'Holiday' to chill and relax.
Maybe its really time for a makeover.
Mood swings? I don't know... I guess, our likes and dislikes keep changing.... Whatever it is, we should have peace and joy in our hearts during festivities. right?
@blasphemeous...
yep yep! :(
@ chithra...
hope so! "aal eez well" i keep saying to myself!
hi matangi... long time since I read ur blog.. :)
started blogging after a long long time.. ur blog is still the same.. I mean i still remember how i was fascinated by your blog's look and feel.. :)
@authentic...
:) feeling old!
thanks anyway! it feels good...
I am intrigued by your cat's name (more than your cloud of non-enthusiasm :-)). Wow! what a name! Must be your mom's spur of the moment christening... Was it a kitten when it came to your place? (Still cannot figure out how a cat can be named thus!!! :) :))
hmmm... rather than mood swings I guess you are heading towards detached attachment :) good for you.. Heading towards the growth in you. Keep it up.
Hmmm. There is the history of Thuppandi in 'Maiththuligal'. Let me read it. :-)
@ramm...
he was hardly say 15 days old.. he has 2 other siblings... one is a female.. other- i do not know.. he/she doesnt stay around here any more... :)
the name! well i named him Vasco (after the explorer.. coz he is such a busy body).. bt ths name was funnier and it suited him very well...
details in maiththuligal...
@preeti...
hmm.. ya.. this view came up.. bt i am not usually like that... i like the child in me to stay alive and active!
@ramm..
:) sure.. let know once you read.. if you liked him!
just dropped in to say hi!
i am your loyal follwer and thse days u r not reading my posts :) ;)
@ Latika...
Wd drop in there real soon!!! :D
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